I feel angry. So so angry. But it’s strange because I have never let myself feel this emotion before. This anger makes me feel sad, it makes me feel shameful and it makes me resentful.
I wish I knew how to release this anger in a healthy way. Because I’m afraid that my anger will destroy things, create long-lasting wounds and make me regretful. I feel as though this is something that I have learnt as a way to cope during my childhood, but damn. I want to release this anger in a productive way but I don’t know how to do that. How do I tell someone that they’re making me angry, without looking like I care about them too much? Should I even worry about them thinking that?
Ugh, I am angry, I am annoyed, I am tired. I am tired of living through disrespect — I want to be seen and heard, valued and respected, celebrated and cherished. I want things to flow in a positive way. I want to release this anger from my system. I am worried that my anger is going to transform into disproportionate anger because I haven’t expressed my anger to those who have hurt me in the past as well.
I have kept silent, and silent, and silent, and I feel like I will explode. I have been tolerant, and patient, and possibly to my own detriment. How do I express my anger in a healthy way? I need to figure that out!
